For love and health...

They say that the most fortunate amongst us go through some kind of adversity that forces us to stop. Stop and look within. Stop and step out of the line. Stop and question...how the hell am I going to get through this?! Stop and search within for strength to get through to another day. Strength to carry on in hope of it getting easier.  It's my experience to know this too. And yet knowing this the pain of going through it...is still big. Real big, because the foundation of my being has been taken away. The man I call dad. The guy who was the first to hold me, the first to love me, the first to support me, the first to care for me so dearly. Just gone. Machine off. No more air.  But then life goes on. I mean it just doesn't stop. Everything just carries on and it makes me wonder...what happened to that man I call dad when that breath left his body?  Such a simple thing is the breath. We don't even give it any thought in a day. We just rely on the universe

People say its really hard when you lose a loved one. I don’t know if I fully understand that expression. Does that mean I might find my loved one again someday, in some way? Perhaps in the ‘Free from’ aisle in Sainsbury’s, reading the back of a label with your glasses at the end of your nose?! Truth is I don’t know how you ended up in that pretty little frame Daddy Lad. Every time I see you in there I think is that all that is left of 72 years of life! 72 years of the most solid support a girl could ever ask for? That’s so utterly sad, it breaks my heart. Lost is how I feel. How do I recover from a fundamental part of my being going missing…? I literally have no idea. And the pain of your memory... shadows all my days, shadows my smile. Strange really cause you smiled the most, in fact you were the one who made people smile. As I move through my days my spiritual strength allows me to know that there is no way we are not still connected. I find myself experiencing small b

Dearest daddy lad, We love you For the hugs and kisses you showered us with For the solid support you provided us with For the times when you said, “its ok you tried your best!” For the times when you said our happiness was above all else For the way you loved us all and your Jasoda the most For the solid example that you set for us all Dearest Daddy lad, We are proud of you For the way you laughed through life For the way your positivity injected inspiration into our lives For the times you said, “Don’t worry about me, I’m much much better!” For the way you fought right up until the end Dearest Daddy Lad, We will miss you Everyday in so many ways But we will continue to celebrate life, just as you would have liked us to For in each of our smiles, lies your memory We will carry you close to our hearts daddy lad, forever more See you later, in another life. Cause we choose you through and through. Lots of love From all of us