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Kevala - finding my spiritual home ❤️

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I recently visited kevala in April 2023. I find it hard to attach words to how beautiful and sacred this space is. From the moment you walk in, you get a feeling of a beautiful safe haven, you are hit with positive possibility and opportunity. People are kind and love is flowing through each interaction.   The gardens are overflowing with lush green vibrancy, enticing you in with each step. There is an energy grid which is super charged and has a cosmic feel. This space really helped me dive deeper into myself, anchoring me in knowing and inner godliness. The nearby sacred mountains form a moving backdrop to the center, one morning we trekked up to the top allowing us to see the most spectacularly inspiring views, breath fresh and energized air and change perspectives completely. Inside the center the space is bright, the main hall has an electric energy, one that I could feel through every class, talk and group session within the space. The art work inspires and reconnects you while t
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its been a while...!

Its been a year since I last took the time to write… That’s a long time! If I reflect on the occurrences of the past year, a lot of change has taken place. Adjustments and settling into what I can only describe as a new desert-style normal. Just when the dust or should i say sand started to settle, I was blessed with another wonderful miracle...pregnancy! And what an amazingly blessed journey it has been so far! I mean a lot of carbs, Sprite and late night Ben & Jerry’s have been consumed!! Not to mention the never-ending supply of Gaviscon to top it all off! Pregnancy gives you a new perspective, a new lens to view your life from. All of a sudden its not just you, your mind, your thoughts, your feelings anymore. All of these things affect another little being, someone who chose me, who chose my husband, to come and become a part of. In the beginning, I would question, can I even do this?! Am I capable of creating another being! I would worry and stress at every litt
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Just breath...

They say that the most fortunate amongst us go through some kind of adversity that forces us to stop. Stop and look within. Stop and step out of the line. Stop and question...how the hell am I going to get through this?! Stop and search within for strength to get through to another day. Strength to carry on in hope of it getting easier.  It's my experience to know this too. And yet knowing this the pain of going through it...is still big. Real big, because the foundation of my being has been taken away. The man I call dad. The guy who was the first to hold me, the first to love me, the first to support me, the first to care for me so dearly. Just gone. Machine off. No more air.  But then life goes on. I mean it just doesn't stop. Everything just carries on and it makes me wonder...what happened to that man I call dad when that breath left his body?  Such a simple thing is the breath. We don't even give it any thought in a day. We just rely on the universe
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Sorry for your loss

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People say its really hard when you lose a loved one. I don’t know if I fully understand that expression. Does that mean I might find my loved one again someday, in some way? Perhaps in the ‘Free from’ aisle in Sainsbury’s, reading the back of a label with your glasses at the end of your nose?! Truth is I don’t know how you ended up in that pretty little frame Daddy Lad. Every time I see you in there I think is that all that is left of 72 years of life! 72 years of the most solid support a girl could ever ask for? That’s so utterly sad, it breaks my heart. Lost is how I feel. How do I recover from a fundamental part of my being going missing…? I literally have no idea. And the pain of your memory... shadows all my days, shadows my smile. Strange really cause you smiled the most, in fact you were the one who made people smile. As I move through my days my spiritual strength allows me to know that there is no way we are not still connected. I find myself experiencing small b
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Dearest Daddy Lad...

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Dearest daddy lad, We love you For the hugs and kisses you showered us with For the solid support you provided us with For the times when you said, “its ok you tried your best!” For the times when you said our happiness was above all else For the way you loved us all and your Jasoda the most For the solid example that you set for us all Dearest Daddy lad, We are proud of you For the way you laughed through life For the way your positivity injected inspiration into our lives For the times you said, “Don’t worry about me, I’m much much better!” For the way you fought right up until the end Dearest Daddy Lad, We will miss you Everyday in so many ways But we will continue to celebrate life, just as you would have liked us to For in each of our smiles, lies your memory We will carry you close to our hearts daddy lad, forever more See you later, in another life. Cause we choose you through and through. Lots of love From all of us
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The act of giving...

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Knowing that something so simple could save or extend another persons actual life. The act of a sharing something precious of your own. All of 10mins to endure and hand over...a little blood. 1 pint to be precise. What an beautiful gift to give 
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Mother hen love...

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This picture captures her spirit. Glowing and exuberating happiness.  For as long as I've lived she has been incredibly caring and giving. She has been sacrificing and selfless. Strong and unfaltering in her primary principle in life...peace!  She would work the longest hours and still on the family front she would show up...happy, singing and spoiling us all!  Should one of us ever feel unwell, there she was! Viks in hand, ready to massage your aches and pains away! So comforting. And her food! Full 100% of her love and dedication to her family...so flavoursome. No one can escape the 'little bit more...!?' Even when your bursting at the seems, how can you resist that beautiful mother hen love!  She is my mum. She is my role model. If I could be half as beautiful as her inside and out it would be an achievement. Unable to hurt another living soul big or small...what an incredible woman! Happy birthday mum, you have always been my grounding, my backbone, my human angel. And
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